Life is being so unfair to me since the beginning of the year 2011. My parents dont believe in me and i guess they dont trust me either. They dont believe in some of the friends that i've mixed with. They dont allow me to have my freedom to slack at night before 9.30pm. They dont encourage me to mixed with the friends which they think are bad. They always nag at me for all the negative things which i've done. They've never thought of what i've felt and what i really wanted in life.They will only remember about the negative things that i do and will easily forget about the positive things that i've done.They will forever live in their own world without thinking of something out of box.
I know exactly what i'm doing and i know whatever my parents have said to me, they are showing care and concerns towards me. Sometimes i really need some space to grow and learn more new things outside the world from outside friends. They can't expect me to live in the same world as them because we 'children' are living in the different generation. I have my own limit and i believe i'm old enough to be sensitive and smart enough to know what is right to do and what is wrong that i should not do. I'm sensitive enough to know which friends should i continue to keep in touch with and which friend should i stay further away from.Yeap, sometimes i really need to accept other people's and family's advice because they are showing care and concern towards me. I appreciate for all their efforts but somehow, i think they've cared too much and left not much space for me learn something new. More over, people will only remember all the bad things that you've done and will forget everything about the good things that you've did. They will always remind us of stop repeating all our wrong doings and they will forever never remind us to continue doing the good doings. As i said at the beginning, LIFE IS UNFAIR! Indeed, it really was.
Have you ever wonder why do i always hang out with guys more than girls? Have you ever wonder why i always stay so close to my male classmates? Have you ever wonder why i did so? NO, YOU NEVER! Nobody could understand me other than myself...
我真的是有苦中的。。。 相信我也好，不相信我也罢。我要上床去休息了。大家，晚安。