off i go

You blow me off. I make sure i will never be back again

I'm extremely tired staring at my lap top for more than 5 hours every single day. I am going to sleep now. byebye...

♥STALKER♥

Can i have you in my heart forever? I will placed you closely to my heart so that i wont allowed you to escape. Never discourage, i am always here to hold you up when you are down. I love you for who you are. I want to let you know that you are the only one i'm waiting for.I swear that you will never be replaced. Among the thousands and millions of people outside the world, you're the only person whom i truly love. I am willing to give you my full support,attention,care and concern. Let me be the one to guide you through the way. I love you and i forever do. -Can we start anew?-

Went to lot 1 this morning to have my breakfast together with yvonne ho. Hopefully, i saw SuanHao walking together with his friend and he dont recognise me while i saw him looking at me from far behind. Managed to call him up and he ask me who i am. Yvonne, DUHH! Indeed,i have changed alot compared to last time.Reach home at around 1 plus. Currently i'm listening to 'True Colours' by Fiona Fung.

Knowing that you are waiting for me
yet i am waiting for you.
Both green lights are on
yet we're so quiet
Knowing that you are not going to start,
i am not going to wait anymore.
Since you want it to be,
i shall let things be.
I'll respect your decision
and make sure you are happy with it.
Giving in would be the only thing that i could do.
Giving up will never be the way that we both wanted.
Let's make today a better day for you and for me.
I will be happy only when i see you happy.
I shall make things fair for you
and i dont mind if i am being treated unfairly.
Because i am willing to give in when i'm truly in love.

LOVE YOU, STALKER! HAHAS!♥
p/s:我决定付出是因为我害怕失去. 这一切是否值得吗?

Hey DUDE! Let me tell you, i dont entertain with your childish actions -.- Trust me, childish people will forever stay single because they have nobody who likes them.If you want to received people's love, you should be more mature enough to think and wait patiently.I'm trying to tell you to stop being one of those inorder to get yourself a suitable partner. I dont wish to hurt you anymore and i dont have the intention anw. Just kindly stop all your nonsense please and thanks!

♥Unfair♥

Alright boy. Being angry doesn't gain you anything. Glad that you have stop playing with it. What's your problem? The lights turn from Green to Red and from Red to Green, how strange? I'm always targeted with silent treatment. Do you think it's fair to me? -SPEECHLESS- Haish.. Alright girl, being angry doesn't gain you anything either. I shall let you be. Go ahead and i dont wish to care about you anymore. I give up! All i could say was take care and get well soon ): Can go eat,please? -SPEECHLESS-
I dont understand why either. Since you know that the person i want is only him, why are you putting so much hope on me? I dont have any intention to hurt you, i'm serious. I am just telling you the fact so that i wont allow myself to toy your feelings.Do you want that to happen to you? I doubt so.HEY DUDE, cheer up ok! We can continue to be friends, alright? Give me up,please.

I will be waiting

♥FOR YOU♥

Thanks for admiring at my beautiful colouring above.Did this within less than 10 minutes time at the Singapore Art Museum this morning.I'm not being racist anw. The reason why i coloured black on its face was partly due to 'i want it to be'. LOL! Do you have a choice? The ans is NO! Too bad XD Having too much fun wondering around at the museum with my classmates,yeah. CLASS 2/2 IS THE BEST! CONTINUE TO ROCK ON! WOOOO~~

I'm being CHEERED UP! Hoping to have a chance in everything now. I will try my best to make it before the big day. I'll never regret because i have been waiting for so long. Hope things will turn out to be what i wanted and expected. Let's do it without wasting your money, hahas! When and where do you want it to be done? You decide. -SPEECHLESS-

i miss you badly

I shall keep this sentence short and simple for you today.'T.T' I miss you badly,do you? -SPEECHLESS- (11:11) UNKNOWN WISHES
As usual, today was the last day of our post exam activities held at the Chua Chu Kang stadium. Extremely fun and i enjoyed very much. Played alot of matches and managed to lose and win some of it. Requested to play with the others who are wondering around the place. Did not stop playing throughout the whole day since it was the last day of the post exam activities and i decided that i must play hard. 'TOTALLTY CRAMP!' URGH! BUTT CRAMP, HAND CRAMP, LEG CRAMP!! *Cries* Kept complaining when i was on my way walking to the stadium with my fellow friends this morning. Pain lei, damn sad. Managed to loiter around with jingjie after school dismissal today. Excercise by walking one whole round of teck whye and slack at the playground after we are done walking. Trying to kill as much time as possible since it was still early in the afternoon. Nothing much now. Haish.. Currently listening to '彩虹' by jay chou...

你的心离我这么进但我却听不到。看不见你的笑容，我正么睡得着？我好想你，你知道吗？

I'M OFF

I'M DOWN and the problem rely on myself T.T Miserable... WHY WHY WHY? The feeling of hurt is back again. Stop me from my idiotic and retarded imaginary thoughts. I gave up all my strength. I'm weak. Blow me off as you wish. -I'M OFF-

♥TEARS♥

Think twice, maybe you shouldn't be blame. It's alright now and i'm sad because of jealousy kills. Haish... All thanks to your smile, it brightens me up but not that much though. ): SAD, do i have a choice? Why must it be them? URGH! Finefinefine, i shall let things be. I can't stop and i can't do a single thing to it. I will be waiting. No matter how many times you have broke my heart, i will still love you. Fair to you? :) I dont need your response because i know you simply wont reply. Guess it will be okay then.Who are you looking at? I wonder...-SPEECHLESS-
Is my love to you counted as love or infatuation? To you, it is definately an infatuation towards me. I'm getting used to it though. Your request seems to be nothing because i wont agree to it no matter how hard you've tried asking.
Anyway, today's post exam acitvities at the Chua Chu Kang stadium was extremely awesome. Much more interesting compared to ytd. Mucsels all cramp when i woke up this morning, how sad? Especially my butt. Cannot manage to sit easily ): Manage to have a competition among girls and boys. Around 10 girls which included me and 10 boys played a match together. Fortunately, we won most of the match. Keep laughing throughout due to their funny actions XD Have to do push up(for boys) and sit up when we lose. Luckily we only manage to do 10 sit ups in total, if i'm not wrong. Tougher for guys, they have to do 20 and above sit ups and push ups XD Hopefuly,all of us did not complete the punishment,hahas! Have fun playing with all different kind of friends. Make some new friends too,cool yeah! Tmr will be our last day, I WILL MISS IT BADLY! T.T *Cries* Sad, hand got blister ): Sayang ^^

Dont ever spoil my happiness! I am happy with everything i am having now! Dont ever make anyone disappear in my life just because of your sellfish-ness! HATE YOU if you dare to take him away from us!Trust me, we will never forgive you, i swear that we can NEVER EVER forgive you! You better think twice and reflect! We need him and if you dont, you simply get out of this place! I dont give a bloody damn whether you go and find your own happiness with anyone in this world,you just simply dont come and interrupt! HATE YOU! Why are you born to take him away from us?Why are you being so heartless? WHYWHYWHY? What else do you want from him? PLEASE, I KNEEL DOWN AND BEGGED YOU PLEASE, DONT EVER TAKE HIM AWAY FROM US!!! HE IS IMPORTANT TO US! I dont care whether he is important to you or not but i simply wont allowed you to take him away, NEVER! Let me warn you, if you dare to try taking him away the next time, I WILL MAKE SURE I POINT A KNIFE AT YOU AND KILL YOU FIRST BEFORE WE LOSE HIM! HATE YOU! You make our life difficult, i hate you SO MUCH!!!
你好自私!请你不要把他带走。我求求你，不要那么做！我跪下来求你了，难道你还不满意吗？你是不是要看到我们大家都离开了你，你才会甘心？不要来干扰我们的生活。我们过得很幸福，很快乐。你还是想清楚一点。你如果不死，我们先死！和他分手是正确的选择。我不多说，也不要说我没有警告你，你最好不要再有下次！！！

♥LIE-ING♥

Stephanie and ME ^^

XiuYan and ME ^^

You're lieing to me and lieing to yourself.Action speak louder than words. You simply go and reflect and ask yourself what have you done and what you are up to. There's no need for me to ask because you simply wont tell me the truth and i dont believe you anymore unless you give me a valid reason why. I wont ask for it instead, you should have the initiative to explain it to me if you still care. It seems to me that you no longer care. I shouldn't be the one to forgive and forget everytime. I'm sick and tired of everything.Alright, no more fat hopes for me and you shall take care. Where's your explaination? -SPEECHLESS- (why am i still waiting)

Thanks god,I'm totally glad that my phone had no more money left. Not going to top up anw. Dont bother to ask me why, i have my reason behind it and you wont understand because you stick to it and i'm avoiding. If you dont get it, then you better not try to go and understand it. Make your life difficult to understand my language,yups, i'm so sorry people. Post exam activities for today was enjoyable. Two more days to go before post exams activities ended. Have to treasure the time spend together with all my beloved friends, yeah :D Played badminton with so many of them. Two words to describe 'ABSOLUTELY FUN'! Looking forward to tmr's post exam activities,yeah.

I just wanted to let you know how important you are to me. Yet, i cant feel the importance of me to you. Have i given you too much?

p/s:不用你说,我也知道。 因为我太过了解你了。I am able to read throuhg your mind. Too bad, you cant!

Top left Eunice followed by YuLing Bottom left ME and Stephanie :D



Wooohooo~~~Had a great great time spending my day together with YuLing,Stephanie,Eunice and XiuYan at the science center ytd!Suppose to go with the rest of my class (2/2) ended up, only i turned up.-.- Having too much fun playing at the waterwork place in Science center.Learned things about 'bacteria' during the workshop.Managed to spend our time wondering around the place and to explore the science center.AWESOME, guess what we saw?NEW BORN CHICK!!Omg, superd cute man! Most of it are fat but tiny and the others have very few feathers. CUTE and i love it! XD After exploring, we decide to went to play at the waterwork place.We make ourself all wet and headed to lot 1 to have our lunch together. Went back home around 2plus if i'm not wrong. Not feeling well when i reach home probably due to the playing of water XD Had an enjoyable day with all of them. Going to chua chu kang stadium tmr for the post exams activities.WOOTS!!!

HEY DUDE! I'm getting used to silent treatment. Although i hate it but it seems to be my daily cycle,do i have a choice? The ans is 'NO'!I'm totally fine with it now,yeah right.I've accpeted the fact. The fact is that,you'll never be the same.Expected of you being silent again. Wondering why are you doing so.Dont bother to ask you why because i know you will ended up being silent towards me again.I might not be able to speak anymore,because i dont have the chance of doing so.You might not be able to hear me anymore,because you refused to listen. We might become strangers soon. Maybe this is the exact way for us to start anew? Now boy, tell me what should i do? Do you treat me as a friend, your sister,a person that you used to love or a person for you to toy it's feeling? -SPEECHLESS-

Knowing that fact is fact,
I'm learning to face it.
I'm dying and i cant stop crying
Knowing that you no longer love me anymore,
I encouraged myself to fake a smile
Pretended that you are still loving me
Look straight into your eyes,
The truth is shown
Telling me that i am not the one...
I turned and walked away leaving all the truth behind me.
I accepted it and i accept the fact that i still love you,
And i always do.

True love stay

What makes me stay is the reason of true love. I dont like your looks neither do i like your smartness or character. I just love you for who you are.I wont leave you and i hope you dont leave me too. I had given you my first true love and i promised myself to wait for the day to arrive.NEVER ESCAPE! I truly miss you alot my dear boy. What are you doing? -SPEECHLESS-

♥FULL OF LIES♥

CRIES, totally disappointed.. Why you left me out? I'm here, i hope you notice me.I will always remember you by hard. Your appearance brightens up my day.I hope it will last as long as possible, this feeling can never be fadded. I LOVE YOU, DO YOU? -SPEECHLESS-
NGOOI TAO LONGGGG, i'm totally shocked to know that you treated me as your sister. Since when did i become your sister? Why didn't you let me know earlier? ): Aliza go and complained to my parents during PTM. Ended up, both aliza and my mother GANG together to scold and nag at me, HOW GREAT? Haha,dont worry, it's over now :) Put this matter aside and i dont wish care anymore.We shall continue to be friends,alright? :DDD Last long with your stead uhs, hahas ^^
All i received after PTM was scolding and nagging from my parents. It was NOT because of my results. There's totally nothing to with it. Partly due to the friends that i have mixed with. Feel like pointing middle finger at both of my parents. They refused to listen and believe my explaination, so why should i be the one listening to them? PISSED OFF! They have no right to stop me from making more friends and trust me,i am not going to stop making new friends.I'm just as stubborn as them! All i could do was to ensure that i will never become bad, i swear that i will never! Results was not badly done. Managed to maintain my overall percentage compared to last year's EOY exams.Improved in ranking from 5 to 4, which is more than enough for me.Too much 'alien' language learned during CCA. Having a hard time to sort out the pronounciation of the lyrics together with the whole choir.URGH, driving me to go impatience soon.I'LL NEVER GIVE UP, JIAYOU!
p/s:给我一点交朋友的自由，这样也不行吗？好自私！

fate♥

♥Our fate our well♥

Two different choices, i decide to take the first one. This is our fate and that had never end since we first met each other. NEVER ENDING FATE ♥ We're near yet I can't hear you loud enough...What are you trying to ask me? -SPEECHLESS-

Went to watch The Child's Eye with korkor at 5.20pm to 6.50pm. With his accompany, i'm feeling more save xD He adviced me to wear blind fold the next time when i watch horror movie due to the continously covering of my eyes ): Eek! Enjoy watching with him cos he can manage to tell me what's going to happen next while i was covering my eyes with his jacket :X Freezing soon. One jacket of mine is not enough. Went back home straight after we've finished watching.The movie was touhing and abit of scary due to the sound effect. It makes me jumped -.- I have a great day, thanks brother! :D

♥WRONG♥

Nothing else for me to say. All that i'm looking for is your support. You have read it, didn't you? Do you even bother about it? FAT HOPES AND WISHES! I'm sorting out where could it be and i guess i found it. I seems to care so much. Do you miss me? -SPEECHLESS-

FAR

♥RED♥

We're very near yet i cant hear you loud enough. I have alot to tell you but i know you dont wish to listen. I decided not at speak at last... -SPEECHLES- Should the green light be on? Will it be better for me? No, i guess. There wont be any difference between Green,Red and Orange lights. You'll never notice me. Even if you did, you dont bother about it. As i said before, I'm nothing to you.I shouldn't be hoping too much.I know you wont return, never again. BUSY with? -SPEECHLESS-

SAD! $2 GONE for being late for CCA after break time. Five of us which added up to a total of $10, GONE CASE! Such a waste? We're late for 1 minute,seriously pathetic.I dont see the point why are we running ended up, we are still late >< A good lesson learnt. NEVER BE LATE AGAIN! Received a call from Aliza (my form teacher) in the afternoon when i was not around asking me to hand up the form by tmr. lolx! I did not even write down a single word despite me saying that i am going to sign all the forms by ytd. Need help with the selling of the concert tickets to be held at Singapre poly. I'm selling it at $5 per ticket (from school,and the money does not belongs to me) and i only have 4 of it which is more than enough because i could not even sell a single piece -.- I'm here to ask if anybody is interested in buying it? Please,please,please i need help.Much appreciated if you could help me to distribute all the tickets by selling at $5. Having a hard time to look for a Black high heels to be wear on 7 November for choir performance. SISTER, do you have one to borrow? ^^

p/s:脑海里，只见你的踪影。可见我是有多么的想念你。不知你心里是否还有我？ -SPEECHLESS-
-Can we start anew?-

♥start anew♥

Credit JingJie XD Lots of thanks,yup.
Told myself not to give up unless you really did. I'll go for whatever hope there's left for me now.Even if it's a tiny bits of hope left, there's no way for me to give up! I can wait and i believe if i am willing to wait, anything could happen just like what you have told me before. Your words meant alot to me. It can never be erased. I will remember every single word you have told me by hard. I wanted to know 'Do you still love me?' -SPEECHLESS-
Alright, got back all my results accept for literature. Part A and B for literature was extremely well done, yups. Waiting for part C's results to be out really soon.Too excited,yeah. I was satisfy with all my results especially chinese.Thought that i would actually failed badly which i didn't. Was disappointed with my science and geography results though. Manage to maintain distintion for all the subjects accept for English and Science.I got low distintion for almost every subjects for EOY exams this time round. Satisfied yet,not happy. Not up to my target still. Have a very long way to go. No school for tmr. Well, i still have to go back for cca from 10am to 3pm if i'm not wrong. Have to ask money from daddy for buying clothes for the sake of choir performance. Too many forms to be sign by today. I'm OFF, bye!

p/s:Am i on the right path?
-Can we start anew?-

SPEECH-LESS

I'm nothing to you now. How GREAT!I'm being stupid to wait for you although i know that it was impossible between us. Love is totally blind.I'm broken again. All because of you being mute towards me.DAMNYOUDAMNYOUDAMNYOU! I shall wait this time round, seriously i have learnt my lesson of not going to start anymore, never again! You take me for granted, i hate you!The more i think, the more i'm going to set you free. Held back my tears and i told myself that it's not worth to cry over someone who wont cry over me and dont even give a damn to me. I am going to stay strong and i believe that i can live without you happily still. If you really feel good of me letting you go, i encourage you to continue being mute towards me. I'm getting used to it now. I told myself that there's no point that i could stop myself from not loving you. If it's the time to let go, why am i struggling so hard to strive for you when you dont even strive hard for me? What nonsense is this? Could you please kindly tell me? YUPP, being a mute again is common to me now.GREAT GREAT thanks for your nothing.
School was kinda boring today. Get back some of our results. Was yet to say that i'm quite satisfy with it though i deproved my gepgraphy. Hopefully, i still can manage to maintain an 'A'. Hmm, english and science was expected to score between the range of getting a 'B'. D&T was as usual which is expected to score an 'A', good job. *thumbs up! Sleep and chit-chatted in class since we are having 3 to 4 periods of D&T lesson. Strange of me not feeling anxious when getting back all my results. Felt as if i am well prepared for the marks that i have gotten. Or maybe it was partly due to not thinking too much, hahas! More papers will be back by tmr, i guess.

p/s:无话可说，我也无能为力。

O.O

♥Not expected♥

♥YVONNE♥

Yvonne Ho and I
p/s: You brightens up my day, woohoo~

Katrina, Nicole and i

Nicole and Cheryl

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To give up is to set you free. Will you be happier if i set you free? Giving up is not easy but i'm trying. I love you still. It's hard to forget.

ENJOY!

♥HAPPY UPLOADING♥

Happy Family ♥♥♥

Taken at the chalet.Dearest sister emily and i ♥

♥Happy sweet 14 birthday to Nicole♥

Sorry guys, did not manage to done editing all the photos taken together. Will continue to edit and upload all the photos tmr into my blog, yeah. Hope you guys like the edited photos done by me ^^ I have enjoyed myself and i hope all of you had a great time too. Especially nicole, i hope you like the presents that we have bought for you ♥
Photos taken at the chalet to be up soon, really soon. Stay tune for all the photos to be uploaded. Went out with yvonne ho this afternoon. We have taken alot of photos. I'm currently too busy with editing,facebooking and blogging. TOO EXCITED, WOOTS!

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Jealousy Kills

Baby Jodie, may i help you? ^^ Photo taken at the chalet. Credit Paul (photographer) Mood swing. Maybe it's due to jealousy :/ KILLS! Sigh, science centre exhibition today was posponed -.- Hmm, photos taken with Nicole ytd to be uploaded soon. Ohh ya! Videos to be uploaded too :O lolx! Having too much fun at Kbox with Nicole, Katrina, Clarissa, Cheryl and Min Hui ytd. Have taken quite alot of videos, wahahas! Currently playing pet society on fb now. BOREDOM CAMES! Haish, such ppl like you keep scolding ppl fuck you, will never receive my help. Asked so politely when help was needed without appreciating ppl -.- Ppl's advice, you refused to listen, not appreciate somemore, still have the right to scold ppl, woah! Listening to "小酒窝" By JJ Lin.
生气是因为我吃醋。吃醋是因为我在乎。在乎是因为我还爱着你。你明白吗？我学会了一样东西，我学会去懂得更看开了。也许这是放弃的第一步。

♥Never escape♥

Writing birthday wishes for sister ♥

Thanks photographer :D

Photos Taken Ytd

Good morning to all! Aww, too many photos to be uploaded. Photos taken at the chalet promised to be upload latest by next week,yeah. Stay tune! I'm booked today! Too busy, wahahas! Hope you enjoy all that photos that i have posted for today ^^ Do enjoy~

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你是我的天使

good night!

你今天不回家吗？跑到哪里去了？记得要早一点休息，知道吗？不要睡过头。哈哈，你真粗心大意。晚安~Cries!! I just miss 11:11... It was already 11:12 T.T byebye, wishes

freedom cause bordom -.-

♥FREEDOM♥

Went to IMM giant just now and saw this handsome guy smiling at me, hahas!This photo was taken by my daddy. Alot ppl walk pass and watch me taking photos -.- BLEHH, i dont give a damn! Wahahas!
OMGOMGOMG! Too many photos to be uploaded!I cant wait anymore!!! Chalet photos was ready for me to upload, woots!!! Photos taken at the chalet to be uploaded probably by next week XD I have taken alot of photos today yet, i only manage to upload two of it due to my lazyness. Shall upload everything at once tmr ^^ There will be more photos coming up, yup! Going to kbox to celebrate Nicole's birthday tmr :D PHOTOSSSS, HERE I COME! Aww!!! I'm too excited ^^ Wahahas! Stay tune for all the photos!!
我大声宣布

“我自由了”

！ 我好想你 ^^

心伤有爱

我已度过了伤心的时光。这种感觉是多么的痛苦，你知道到吗？我好不容易才去面对事实但，我的感情对你依然还是不变。

enable to feel

♥FEEL ME♥

Tmr was our last paper, woots. Booked on thursday and friday. I'm free tmr,yeah. Have been revising with jingjie this afternoon. Spend about 4 hours of revising at my house.2hours of me teaching maths, 2hours of him teaching me science XD Took him quite a long time to explan the chapter about sexual reproduction XD lolx! Learned alot from him, much appreciated. ^^ Still want to charge me the next time when he teach, eek! So bad! ): Started taking photos on thursday, yup! Stay tune and thanks for reading ^^ All the best for our last paper!
我会在你身边陪伴着你。虽然看不见，到却感觉得出我的存在。