i'm sorry

I'm sorry for rejecting you again and again. I dont feel good to reject people either. I only left myself with a choice which is to tell lies to make you feel happier that i love you but i actually dont ): Haish... I'm lieing to you and myself... What else can i do if i dont? I dont want to see my friends being heart broken by me everytime. I dont feel good, i seriously dont! I'm sorry but i seriously dont mean it ):